Back to the routines

Today has been a long day. Master is starting to give me small tasks and trying to get back into routine around here. This means i need to be a good slave and get my butt back in gear. Master wants me to take things slow and i will listen and follow His lead.

melody and Master had a session last night. i got to watch and it was really amazing. The ease in which melody submits and relinquishes total control is amazing to me. i usually have this internal struggle that melody doesn't seem to have or show. i also got to help out with the aftercare and i loved that too. It made me feel a part of things again! i can't wait to feel Masters hands and ropes on my body again. Oh how amazing it feels to have someone fondle you and caress those sensitive parts:) Okay i am going to stop or i will just make myself all horny again. Master told me there would be no orgasms for me....oh man!

It has been nice to catch up on blogs. i am starting to slowly feel reconnected. i missed reading and sharing here way more than i thought i would.

W/we are going to a munch in a few weeks and i am excited about that. We have invited our new friends Master Don and His slave susie along with emma. i don't know if emma will go but i really hope so!!!!!

i am off to help out with dinner
lucy

lucy posting

i have been reading blogs and playing around on the Internet and it is making me horny. It has been a LONG time since i have had any release, so it is easy to get my juices flowing:) It is fun to have all these thoughts in my floating around in my head. It is a nice change from the past months. There is less worry and tension around here....a much needed change.

melody is back working full time. i know she missed it and i am eternally grateful for all that she sacrificed during my recovery. i have never met anyone with such commitment (except for Master) she amazes me every day with her strength, drive and energy. Honestly i don't know how she does it all. i am excited to spend more time with her little guy again....fun, fun!! Kids are so full of life. i can't quite keep up with him yet but soon he will have to keep up with me:)

Master is back to working part-time and has to take a trip soon. He has to go back east for a few days before the holidays. It will be hard without Him and He will be greatly missed. melody and her mate are going to stay with me and help out around here.

W/we have been talking about making some changes in our living arrangement. Master lives on a large plot of land and has a guest house in the back part of the property. melody's commute to work and home and here and then back home again is becoming a lot of time spent in the car. Not to mention the weather is changing and the snow is going to start making thing difficult. Master and melody's mate are discussing moving the three of them out to Master's property. melody and i are very excited about that idea! There aer lots of logistics to work out but hopefully in the New Year there will be some delightful changes coming our way.

melody's Mate is really taking a liking to the lifestyle!!!! i am not going to say much there but it is all good!!!!

i guess that's all i have for now. Anyone have a link to a good site with stories??

lucy

Long Time

Hello everyone, this is lucy.....posting for the first time since the accident. Master wanted me to start posting again. He thinks it will help bring me back to focus on my submission. i can't even remember the last time i felt like a slave. It has been a very long hard time these past months. i can honestly say that i am not the same person anymore. i almost died and as much as it is cliche to say that it changed me....IT DID! i look at my life differently....not that i would change anything. More that i need to live more in the moment. i need to make sure i don't wait to do things anymore...there may not be a later.

i want to give a huge Thank You to my Master and melody. They have been two of the most amazing people. Never giving up on me and always standing by my side. When i think of the bigger picture i cry because i am SO lucky to have the family i have. People think of family as people who share in your blood line, but i disagree. my true family is not even blood related to me....they are my friends. i love my family more than i could ever express in words!!!

i have been reading and catching up on all the blogs/journals that i missed. It has been nice to reconnect to my life. i haven't served Master in so long that i didn't know if we would be able to go back to the way we were. Then Master told me that we will never go back because we are not the same people anymore. We are changed by what happened and our journey will reflect that. Of course we will be Master & slave, but it's like we have to begin again in some ways. i think it will be good for us and i am really excited to step back into my role at Master's feet.

On a little different note.....
The doctors say i will be able to resume 'normal' activity in about a month. YEAH!!! i can't even tell you all how excited i am to get back into the real world.

Thanks for all your well wishes....and for sticking around!!
Oh yeah, melody wanted me to post a link to a new friends journal... Her name is emma and she is such a sweet girl. she is new to the cyber world but really needs to reconnect with the lifestyle. i just helped her set up her journal.........
http://emmabegin.livejournal.com/

Thanks to all!
lucy

It has been an interesting couple of days for me. Sir felt it was time i spent more than a couple hours being His. i spent the entire weekend being His. It had a few ups and downs for me but we weathered the storm together. One thing i wanted to write about was spending time in the closet. This is a new space that Sir has created to keep me isolated but close by. This will ultimately be used for lucy but i am breaking it in for her...hmmm:)



When i was first placed in the closet i felt like i was going to panic. i wanted out for it has been a long time since i have spent any time in isolation. i went from panic to calm to worried. i became worried about all the things i wasn't doing. How i was spending time sitting when i should be productive. the past few months thee hasn't been much time for resting let along sitting and doing nothing. Every moment was precious. Then i realized i was doing something......i was serving Sir. Maybe i wasn't actively doing anything but this is what He wanted and i needed to be content in that. It was an interesting moment for me. i spent the rest of the time wishing i could be with Him. i wanted to see Him. touch Him, look at Him.

i felt very needy the longer i stayed in there.
i felt guilty for feeling needy
i wanted Him

Why do i have this cycle of thoughts when i am in isolation? why do i worry about my vanilla life when i am in the middle of intense submission? Should i feel guilty about it?
i DO!