Back to the ropes.....

i decided not to wait till Wednesday to make my first post this week. Hmmm...am i being a good sub or just enjoying being on blogger??? Master wants me to think about how this blogging is helping me grow or if it is at all?

Back to the crotch rope:

i think i left off where it was begins to REALLY burn like a rope burn does. i had to wear that damn crotch rope for two more hours. i had to wear it until i finished my chores. (Of course Master gave me this giant chore list) During that 'burn' i had this major internal struggle with myself. i wanted to beg for release but my stubborn side was trying to push threw. i became determined to win out this weaker side of myself. After an hour of acceptance i found myself trying to figure out what Master wanted more. Did He want me to beg for release or did He want me to really push myself? Then i figured He just wanted to me have this internal struggle. There were a few moments where i actually went into His office, stood there silently and then left again. He could tell i was struggling and i think i actually heard Him chuckle.

Well that crotch rope made my clit SO swollen and sore. Just the slightest touch made me jump. i wanted to beg for orgasm but i knew if He touched my clit it would hurt. i was feeling SO needy. It was strange to not know what to do with myself. i decided to let go and follow Master lead. i wouldn't beg for anything just let Master take what He wanted.

Master took me for quite a journey over the weekend. He didn't allow me to orgasm until His family left and that was three LONG days! All the mind play and bondage played off because Master made love to me on Sunday night....it was amazing....and it HURT!!

i am off to study.

Crotch ropes suck!!

Today after lunch Master grabbed me by a fist full of hair and pulled me up into the attic. He looked deep into my eyes and told me to strip and grab the overhead bar. Ofcourse i had to begin asking a million questions and being a smart ass....which didn't go over too well. See Master and i had been verbally teasing and playing all day and so it was hard to change gears that fast. i was still feeling childish and playful, but Master was not. i took a few swift smacks to the ass and was told to be silent or He would make me silent. i was silent immediately for i wasn't in the mood to do chores with a gag.

Master proceeded to bind my breasts. After they were bulging and turning a nice red color He took each nipple and placed a weighted alligator clamp on each. i felt that initial burn run threw me and then it subsided into a manageable pain...until Master flicked the weight. (He really is sexy when that sadist comes to life...yummy) i guess i don't have to say how wet i was at this point....Especially since i am on orgasm denial for a while. During these time Master likes to make my agony even harder and that is where the crotch rope comes into play.

First i was filled with a nice thin vibrator which was kept in place with a tightly tied crotch rope. Master positioned my clit right in between two strands of the rope...making my clit swollen with excitement. Then Master added one more rope that had a knot so nicely placed right up against my swollen clit. This rope was tied a wee bit looser so as to add a rubbing sensation when i moved. Master then kissed me, removed the nipple clamps, and told me to go about my chores. Here were my rules for this predicament:
~If i complained to Him i would be punished.
~If i messed with the ropes i would be punished.
~If i orgasmed i would be severely punished.
~i was allowed to beg, with permission, for release from my torment but i would have to present three GREAT arguments as to why i should be released....UGH! (this three argument thing never works for me because i get so distracted by my predicament that i can't think of three, GREAT reasons)

Now i went and started my chores. At first i was enjoying the pain and pleasure waves. i didn't really have as much trouble fighting back orgasm as i initially thought. After about an hour of enjoying my ropes i began to really feel the burn. The rope with the perfectly placed knot started to actually give me a rope burn...or that's what it felt like. Every move i made caused this burning sensation...UGH.

Master is calling for me so to be continued......

Holidays and More

Well ling's performance was amazing!! Master has been calling her melody because of the beautiful sounds that she produces....cute huh? she sang three songs.....with her friend Morgan. (side note...He is REALLY good looking) Master is going to work on getting the audio thing to work on blogger. He tried but everytime we went to play it it would bog our system down.....Ugh to blogger.

Master finally got to meet ling's mate. They got along exceptionally well....better than anyone thought. He seemed really curious about what Master and i do with her and Master wonders if maybe is more interested than ling thinks. The boys are going to get some beers over the holiday and talk. When i asked about what Master said i was being a nosy slave so that's all i got.

Now i was hit with a bomb of information yesterday.......Master's family is coming for the holiday. OH MY GOD!!! my heart about dropped out of my body. Master is very open about His lifestyle. No, i don't walk around naked and get beaten in front of them but our roles are clearly defined and we represent them at all times. Needless to say His family isn't all supportive. Master's mom is a wonderful woman and she loves how i "take care" of her son. His sister is a total bitch. Her and i do not get along and she thinks i am adding to the repression of woman. i can't stand her and she can't stand me...should be fun. she walks all over her husband but sees nothing wrong with that. Now Master's brother is young and horny....He is always hitting on me. Master thinks its funny but i really don't like it. Master has made arrangements for the food so all ihave to do is clean and prepare the guest quarters. This should be an interesting holiday.

Being that we have guests Master has given me a little break on my posting. If i choose not to get my three posts in then they will be added to the next week after the holiday. i am thinking i should just get threw the posts since i only have one more but i am worried i will be too distracted when they arrive. We shall see.

i am off to work on my chores.

A Quickie

Tonight i am going out to watch ling do an open mic performance. i am SOOOOO excited. Just watching her up there on stage makes my pussy throb....she really has been getting my juices flowing lately. she looks so beautiful up there on stage. ling has a lot of talent but will not admit to it.

Master sent me an email with instructions on what i am to wear to the performance. (He is going to meet me there.) i am to wear this tight wrap around shirt i have with no bra....and no panties either. a short black skirt with my knee high boots. i think i will look like a slut but that is what Maser wants then that is what Master gets.

The other day at the grocery store the check out clerk was totally hitting on me and Master didn't like it. He said it was because i was flirting back which i didn't really think i was doing. Master usually like sit when guys try to hit on me but not the other day. He told me i was acting inappropriately and i found myself in a heap of trouble. Now when i look back i think i was flirting a weeee bit but it was harmless. my ass is killing me and i am on orgasm denial for a while. that means a long time when Master doesn't designate a time frame. Ugh....why do i do this to myself.

Well i am off to get ready for tonight. i will make ling post so you all can know ow she did. i wonder if we could put an audio clip on here...hmmm something to ask Master???