March 25, 2007

The Figging Punishment

i was naked, laying on the floor of the attic. i could see the video camera in front of me along with a pile of ropes. Sir proceeded to tie my hands behind my back lacing the silky rope around my arms all the way to my elbows. Then Sir moved to my ankles and laced my legs tightly together. Then Sir placed me over a pile of pillows so that my ass was fully exposed, pointing ever so nicely right up in His face. i was so embarrassed for some reason. i knew what was coming and i was dreading it.....the ginger. It was a decent size piece of ginger and Sir had peeled it so it was nice and fleshy (as He put it) Sir used the juices from my cunt to lube up the ginger and before i could protest i felt Sir push the ginger right into my rectum....Ugh. Once Sir had things in place the pillows were removed and i was tied into slightly loose hogtie. Usually i can barely move when Sir ties me in a hogtie but He wanted me to be able to wiggle a bit. He wanted to watch me struggle with this burning ginger in my ass. i had nipple clamps and a jaw spreader gag.....i HATE this gag which made it great for this punishment. It instantly makes me drool and i can't stand drooling!!!

At first the piece of ginger was just uncomfortable. Almost like a shit that wouldn't come out. Then it slowly began to burn. little by little the burning got worse. i tried to wiggle the piece of ginger around a bit but all that did was make a new area of my rectum a victim to the burning. i definitely gave Sir the show He was after because i was miserable. i wiggled and moaned and cursed myself from behind all the drool. i became really angry that Sir would put me through this but i realized i needed it at the same time.

After about 20 minutes of struggling it became easier to just settle into the pain and accept it. i knew i couldn't wiggle out of the predicament so i just rode it. i welcomed the pain because i deserved it. i needed to be punished for m y actions and so i wanted Sir to see that i accepted His punishment and i learned my lesson. i had to endure this punishment for 45 minutes which seemed like eternity. Afterwards Sir and i talked and He held me and told me He loved me as His submissive. That He didn't like to watch me suffer through all that but it was necessary. The video isn't for Sir it's for me for future reminder of what happens when i act out.

i suppose i have to say it was successful punishment but it pains me to say it.

Oh yeah ans my ass burned for days to follow....AHHHHH!!!

March 09, 2007

It's been too long

This morning i looked at the blog and realized how neglectful we have been.

lucy is home....YAY!!! We had a wonderful home coming and many of the 'kinks' have been ironed out. i am sure there will be bumps along the way but we seem stronger and more cohesive. When in a poly type relationship it is easy to get stuck at those bumps. If one person struggles longer than the others it can be difficult. i have learned lots about patience and really hearing someone.

One change is we have more clearly defined relations with one another. I will explore my Dominant side with lucy but she will not with me. It became to hard for lucy to switch roles. I really like the idea of exploring that side of things. i think it will help me understand my submission at a deeper level. It has been along time since i really delved deep into my submission and i am really looking forward to doing it again. lucy on the other hand hasn't had as much opportunity to really experience the depth of submission and she feels she needs to concentrate on that. Master Michael will use us both together from time to time which i really love doing!

i feel like we are complete having lucy home again!

Sir Michael informed me that i will be spending more time in the cage soon. i feel nervous about it but i find that it really helps me center myself within my submission. When locked in a cage you really have no option but to think. It puts me in my place so to speak. i do feel very vulnerable after a session with the cage....almost needy. i think it might be mild sub drop but how can just being in the cage do that. Usually i only experience sub drop after a particularly intense session.

One a more vanilla note.........
i have been given the opportunity to teach a few classes in a more public setting. There are a few restaurants that offer cooking classes to the public and I can't get to teach a session on quick meals with a gourmet feel. This is something i do often at home, and i can't wait tot ouch in with my demographic.

The other day while at school this intern approached me and asked me out for coffee. He wants to talk about some private cooking lessons. i would love to do that and make some extra money but I am nervous. We have this flirty exchange and it really turns me on.....Now this guy is absolutely gorgeous, and i am really attracted to him. Part of me wished we could do the cooking lessons in the nude but that isn't realistic....hehehehe

Until next time......

Oh yeah....i will ahev topost about the figging SUCKED!!!!