Good News

i have some amazing news.......
lucy woke up yesterday!!!!!!!!!!

This is something i prepared myself to not happen and now that it has it makes me realize that there really are miracles int he world. All the doctors told she would probably never come back to us and if she did she wouldn't be herself. Well they were WRONG! She is back and although she is weak she is herself. she is alive and hopefully will maintain this way. i am on cloud nine!!!! It will be along road of recovery for her but she is with us and that is all matters.

When everything going on we thought maybe we would close this chapter of our lives but Sir has given it some thought and realizes He isn't going to give up because things are hard. It is just another bump in our road. We are strongest as a unit and we shouldn't walk away from things just because it gets hard.

There hasn't been much BDSM to talk about. That has taken a back burner for such along time. With all our schedules and hospital time it hasn't been time to really connect on that level. i can say that i am honestly feeling the desire growing inside me. It's like i just didn't think about it. Mostly because it felt wrong to think about that kind of need in a time like this. i felt selfish and ridiculous for even thinking about asking for some release. i know Sir could tell my need was there but neither of us wanted to go there. It was as if we just brushed it all under the table and now that things are looking brighter i feel like it might be okay to think about it now. Is that totally horrible?

i have been reading anew blog recently......A view from the floor
i have to say that i am really enjoying reading her words. It is a bit raw for my taste but it is so real and honest that i feel it deserves recognition.

Well i am off to the hospital to bring my little sister some flowers.
Until next time........

A few words

Things have not been well for us recently. lucy had her second surgery and is not doing well. We are all together and are hoping for the best. For the time being we are taking break from this blog. Thank you to all for reading. melody will be posting from time to time.

Goodbye for now......
Master Michael

A Quickie

i just got my ass chewed out for not posting in a month! i had no idea time goes by that fast. i feel like i just updated but looking at the expression on Sir's face i can tell i messed up!!!



Things are going very nicely here. Sir is pretty much 100% up and running. It is nice to not be the only one who is functioning. Sir still has limited work schedule so lucy is having lots of TLC! It is so nice to watch Sir take care of her. Even thought lucy is the submissive it is refreshing to see the love. Sir is not only a Dominant....He is a human in love. i feel refreshed by that



i am still working more than i would like. i can't seem to leave my students....go figure:)



There is so much to update on and i only have five minutes....sorry! i will be back with more of a BDSM update......or my ass is grass and you all know what Sir is:)



Until next time........

melody

Finally a moment to sit.....

Sorry it has taken me so long to update.

lucy is home and it has taken a while to adjust to our new routine. i am SO happy to have her home and i can tell that she is much happier. Everyday has its challenges for her but she is getting stronger and once she is out of the wheel chair then the Doctors are going to schedule her second surgery. (Unless of course her condition worsens) her physical therapy is going much better. lucy tends to resist things that are hard for her (which i think is natural) but she is really, really, really, hard on herself when things don't come easy. i try and help her see that physical therapy is supposed to be hard or you would need it. There was a point where she was refusing to do it at all and Sir had to step and put His foot down. i know she wants to heal quickly and i can only imagine how she feels, but resistance will not get her healed quickly.

It has taken a bit but i think we are finally falling into a good routine. It has been a really hard struggle to balance things, and there was a point where i didn't think i could do it all. Between work, home, my wee one, my mate and all the things i need to do at Sir's house it is draining. i am not trying to complain. There are just moments when i feel weak and i know i need to be stronger. A typical day for me begins at 4:30am and doesn't end until about 11:00pm. After a few weeks, or months actually, of all this it is taking a toll on me. Sir actually hired some extra help recently because with the school year winding down my work schedule is going to get more hectic in the next month. i will not be teaching a full load of summer classes this quarter so that will help.

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As for my submission i had a really hard internal struggle recently. The other night Sir decided He wanted to use me. Of course this is His right but that night i REALLY did not want to be used. i was tired and irritable and felt used already. i had been going since 5:00am and it wasn't until 10:30 that Sir decided to string me up and use me. It was a really hard mental place for me.

i have given myself in submission to Sir and He can do with me as He pleases when He pleases. i know this and i love this and want this. i need and want to relinquish that control to Sir, but that night was the first time in a long time when i wanted to say no. All i wanted to do was curl up in my bed and sleep sweet dreams. It was a true testament to myself and my submission because i didn't rebel. i released all my resistance and gave myself to Sir. It was hard but i did it for Him. i didn't release myself for my own desires i was there solely for Sir. It was a nice, however hard, reality check for me. i needed to be put into my place and once i was at Sir's feet i actually felt more contentment than i had in weeks.

Thank you Sir!

Until next time......
melody