Task Complete

It has been a very nice weekend here. We had a few friends over for a BBQ and that was great fun!!

Master has instructed me to finish writing about my task. i managed to get all the items on the list. Master did call me while i was out and added a big bag of clothes pins to the list.....Ugh!! When Master got home i had everything laid out for His approval and He looked everything over with this sadistic grin on His face. i could tell i was in for some sort of predicament.

i had put together a nice meal for us and Master said all this would wait till after dinner. my heart sank because the anticipation of all this was killing me. i now had to sit threw dinner without any relief from my ropes and i was anxious to know what Master had in mind for all those items. He knew it would be hard for me to sit threw dinner and not ask any questions......and it was horribly difficult....but i managed. Once dinner was over Master went into our bedroom and i was instructed to clean up the kitchen. UGH!!!!

When i finally finished i went into the bedroom and knelt beside the bed. Master instructed me to suck His cock....i did with great excitement. It didn't take much for my juices to start really flowing. Once Master was nice and hard He grabbed my hair and told me to grab the bar. (we have a canopy style bed and the bars are reinforced for bondage.) Master proceeded to touch my body all over....feeling how wet i was between my legs. He gave out this little chuckle when He ran His fingers over my clit. i almost jumped five feet i was so excited. Master then told me He would use all the item i bought today to place me in a bit of a predicament. Master loves watching me squirm....ALOT!

When Master went to loosen my crotch rope i thought....finally....but i was in for a bit of a surprise. Master inserted a big butt plug and attached the pocket vibe i bought right against my clit. Then He tightened the ropes again. i honestly thought i would orgasm right then and there. Master proceeded to untie my breasts and place one clothes pin at a time on my already tender breasts. There were 5 clothes pins in the bag. Master was kind and only used half the bag.....He managed to cover each breast well and a few on my pussy for fun....That's what He said! i was then placed on the bed in a tight hogtie. my hair was tied to my feet so that i could see the TV. Master then placed the porno i rented in the DVD player, turned on the vibe and told me not to orgasm without permission. At which point He placed a ball gag in mouth and left.

my mind immediately began to race. i had to calm myself so that i didn't orgasm. i initially thought i wouldn't watch the porno but whe i closed my eyes all it did was intensify my awareness of the vibe on my clit. i tried to wiggle around in hopes i could jar the vibe off the side of my clit, but all that did was increase the pain in my breasts. Being in the hogtie put pressure on all those clothes pins. my clit was screaming in pleasure, my tits were on fire and i had no idea when Master would be back.

It seemed like forever until i heard Master coming down the hall. i immediately began to squirm and moan trying to convey that i was ready to beg. To beg for my release! Master had other ideas. He pulled a chair up next to me and began to watch the porno with me. He made a comment about how long the movie was......60 minutes. OY MY GOD! He wasn't going to make me wait until the movie was over.....was He?

Master stood in front of me and removed the gag. He planted this big passionate kiss on me and sent shivers through my whole body. Then right in that romantic moment He shoved His cock down my throat. He face fucked me harder than ever before and when i felt His cum pour down my throat i felt at peace. (Of course i am not gonna lie and say i didn't want to beg to orgasm right then and there.....Because i DID!) Master grabbed my face in His hands and told me that i was a great slave. That He loved me and i had served Him well that night. He replaced the gag and told me He wasn't in the mood to hear me beg.

After the movie i was released from my hogtie and given a whipping that really made me fly. After the whipping....just when i thougth i couldn't take any more Master stepped close to me and started to play with my clit. i gave Master these pleading eyes....eyes that longed for that sexual release. Master removed the gag and told me that i could beg Him, and if i did a good job He would consider letting me orgasm. Let me just say that i begged with all my might.....every submissive bone in my body was behind that begging. Did i ever say that Master likes to give me tough choices in that state? He told me i could orgasm but i would have to sleep in the attic. If i didn't orgasm i could sleep in Master bed next to Him.....Ugh! Master also doesn't let me have long to decide. i quickly realized that i couldn't hold my orgasm any longer and let the wave of pleasure overcome my body. i could feel the puddle forming at my feet. i think it was the longest orgasm i have ever had....seriously. i was paralyzed in the pleasure.

i did spend the night on the floor in the attic that night....soaked in my own juices. Was it worth it???

First a BIG thanks to all who posted a comment!!

Master said all of those exact things to me but i was really shocked! This proves how very naive i am in all this. The comments also made me a bit nervous...because that means people are reading what i am writing. i feel very insecure with that and immediately didn't want to post today. i am supposed to post three times a week. Master set this rule a few nights ago for my fears were beginning to take hold of me. i was feeling like my insecurities were being validated by that commenter. Master did not like this one bit and feels this new rule will help me step back out of my shell.

It is amazing to me how secure i feel with Master and how insecure i feel with others......Sexually/submissively that is. i feel i have been successful in my confidence in the work force....now to apply that confidence to my submissive world and i could really soar! Master will guide me and i will soar one day. (i don't really like all this figurative language but it is a nice way to put things)

A task has been given to me this morning. i was awakened and used.....quite roughly i might add. It was a nice way to center myself for the day and this task. After we were all cleaned up Master put my breasts into a nice bondage bra. Not too tight....just right. Then i was given a crotch rope that was a bit tighter and made me go instantly crazy. It has been a while without orgasm and i am really starting to feel the desire intensify. i WANT IT!!!! BADLY!!!! While Master was positioning the crotch rope He took full advantage of my desire. He teased and caressed my clit. i almost lost my footing. i got dressed and knelt by the bed and waited for instruction.

i was to wear the ropes till Master got home from work.
i was under NO circumstances allowed to touch the ropes except to go to the bathroom. (Master would be able to tell if i orgasmed because my sensitivity wouldn't be so high. It is going to be difficult dealing with that pressure on my clit all day. It really wouldn't take much to orgasm. A little rocking back and forth with my clit pressed between the ropes.......Ahhhh yes! That would be SO nice!)

Okay, okay......at some point during the day i was to venture out and purchase a few items for later tonight:
20 feet of rope
batteries of varying sizes
a new pocket vibe (this means i have to go to a sex shop)
porno video of my choosing (YEAH!!)
i have to ask for help atleast once while at the sex shop. That will be difficult for me. i feel like the person will know my dirty little secret....lame i know.

After i do my shopping i am and return home i am to spend the rest of the day nude and do a bunch of chores. i have to apply nipple clamps an hour before Master is due home. When Master returns home we are having dinner and then some fun.....YEAH!!!

Should be an interesting day.....i LOVE Fridays!!

MEAN COMMENTS!!

i received this in my comments:
"You are a fool, a SICK, SICK, pathetic fool. A human who's not had self esteem for so long, she's begun to identify with the abuse. what a waste of skin you and that scumbag you call a 'master'. "

At first i was shocked.....then angry.....then i became very apprehensive. Master wanted me to partake in this blog to become more open with others, but i never thought i would encounter such negativity. i spent some time talking about it with Master and He really doesn't want me to stop blogging because of one comment. i personally want to run and hide from this but i suppose there is a lesson in it somewhere. Master and i agreed that i should not be as explicit as i have been in my posts. Then there is that whole freedom of speech junk that we always talk about. i guess i just need tougher skin.

Now to the anonymous commenter. If you would like to ask me a direct question or hear about my life with an open mind....i would be more than happy to do that....BUT please don't leave anymore negative comments like that. You are helping nobody with an attitude like that. If you think you are going to 'save' me....well you are mistaken because i have already been saved! If you don't like what you read then just leave, but don't hurt others because you think you know it all.

Anybody out there have any thoughts on this....any words of wisdom for this negative shit???

Update

i sit here watching my friend post a sad post. She hurts and there is nothing i can do for her. i do try to listen and just give her a shoulder when needed. i hope she realizes she has a friend in me!

Now a little update. Master and i have had a great few days! When we are in synch....we are in sync. i have been on my best behavior and He appreciates that. i can see it in His eyes. i spent a bit of time tied outside this weekend. It was a wonderful weather here and Master took advantage of it. Master's house is on a fair amount of land and there aren't neighbors for miles. He tied me inbetween two trees at the back of the yard. i was in the middle of the yard so that He could see me from every window on the back side of the house. i was stretched tighter than i have ever been stretched before. i had a crotch rope ties tight against my clit. i had nipple clamps weighted with padlocks. Any movement to try and satisfy my burning desire between my legs caused the padlocks to swing and OH MY GOD did it HURT!!!! Master was kind and only made me wear the weights for 30minutes but the clamps for an hour.

i have spent long periods in bondage so my body is trained for it. i spent a good portion of the day outside. i will admit now that i don't particularly like outdoor bondage. i hate getting hot and sweaty and i HATE bugs. After 90 minutes in that stretched out position Master untied me and had me sit with my back against the tree. i was tied to the tree with little mobility. i watched as Master BBQ and prepared a wonderful meal for us to share. After dinner Master fucked me and used me. No, i wasn't allowed to orgasm. i came SOOOOO close a few times but knew the punishment would be harsh if i gave in to the desire.

All in all it was a good weekend. i got a good spanking on Sunday. Oh yeah i don't know that i have mentioned this before, but every Sunday i get my punishment spanking. During the week Master keeps track of my infractions and i receive a spanking for them. he explains each smack earned. i dread Sundays here. i wish we could have the normal lazy Sunday, but no. this week i earned 85 smacks. Like i said i have a mouth on me.....