New Happenings

i realize it has been a while since i posted here and i am sorry. There have been many new developments in our world and i have been given a reprieve from posting while we get adjusted. Master has taken on a new sub full time. This has been a great new experience for all of us. It has added a lot to Masters schedule. It is amazing how much work is involved in taking on a new sub. Our routines have changed and many of my tasks have changed too. i will go into more detail soon.

Many people have read ling's blog. She was part of Clouds stable but He has recently released her. Master has taken her on as His sub...hence all the changes. i am thrilled to have a sister slave and ling is excited too. i think i bring out the brat in her and Master isn't really liking that.

i will be posting more regularly soon. i will also be giving more detail about my tasks and new routines:)

All my best to the blog world!

New Sister

Master has taken on a new sub for training. At first i was a wee bit nervous about this but i have lost all my nerves. This is going to be an amazing experience. i have always wanted a sister slave and now i am going to get one. i have people i email or chat too but it isn't the same as the physical flesh. We get to talk about girlie stuff, about Master, about sessions and what happened last night. i always thought Master adding another woman sub was because i wasn't enough.....but that isn't the case at all. This sister sub is gong to enhance my submission inso many ways. i can't wait.

One thing that is really new for me is taking her demerits and having her take mine. See throughout the week Master collects demerits and i must be punished for them at the end of the week. Now it will be Fridays which makes for an interesting way to start out a weekend. With ling involved in our circle we will bear eachothers demerits. This will definitely help me focus and Master thinks it will cut my demerits down considerably....or i hope so for ling's sake:)

Now for a comment about ling. This woman is amazing. When she slipped into sub mode it was the most amazing transformation i have ever seen. It is as if the superwoman i know transcends into this submissive goddess. Whatever....it was beautiful and i only wish she could see what i see.

i already have ten demerits this week. i was supposed to bring home the digital camera from school so we could use it Friday....but spacy lucy forgot. i was using it to photograph food for this magazine thing and left it in my locker.....that sucks!!!

i am also going to be taught these six protocol positions that ling showed us. She actually endured 30 hard swats with a paddle and barely moved from her position. i honestly don't think i have that much control over my body. i think i will try to wiggle out of each one....Hence i spend lots of time in bondage. Master says things are going to change and i am excited for it!!!

well life is good and i am SO excited to have this new sister to share with!!!

Feelings

i am feeling down today. i got a nasty email and phone call from a friend. This is a person i have known for about 6 years and we have been the closets of friends ever since we met. We no longer live near eachother and it has taken it toll on our friendship. There just isn't enough time in the day for long phone calls or chats online. i have been sending him emails and a link to my blog so he can keep updated on my life....but that isn't enough for him. How do you tell someone you love and care about that you don't have the time for them like you used to....or like they desire? It is hard because i don't want to loose my friendship but i just can't feel badly every time i can't chat. Then i got this email and phone message from him and he just said hurtful things. i know he is hurting and wanted to make me hurt to but all it did was make me angry....and Master too. Master reads all my emails and listens to all my voicemails, so He knows what my friend said and is pissed. Master told me He was going to call my friend and i know i can't stop Him but i wish He would let me handle it. As a slave do i have that right? Should i be allowed to handle this situation? i suppose not and i should trust that Master will do what is right.....BUT Master has a tendency to be blunt and harsh. i am more sensitive and sweet....or more considerate of my friends feelings. Master could care less if my friend is upset at Him....Ugh.

Now onto an interesting story. One i find to be funny but Master doesn't. The other night we were out at a club and Master got into a fight....(hehehe, makes me giggle just thinking about it) Okay so here is the story.....
i really wanted to go dancing and Master being so kind decided to indulge me and take me out to this club i have been wanting to check out. Master choose this short jean skirt with a black tank top. i was showing some skin but tastefully. When we arrived Master ordered me to fetch a round of drinks before i went out on the dance floor. i danced my way to the bar and while waiting for my drinks i started talking to the guys at the bar. i will admit that i can be a bit flirty but nothing out of control. One of the guys asked me if i wanted to dance. Now Master doesn't dance so i brought Him the drinks and asked if i could dance with this guy. Master said yes. (now there are some rules for me dancing with other men....the number one rule is no touching) This guy did not respect my boundaries at all and had his hands and body all up on me. i told him repeatedly to stop and when he didn't i started to walk away. As i turned to walk away the guy grabbed me and pulled me back. By this point Master was on His way out to the dance floor to rescue me. This guy got all pissed and called me very rude vulgar names. Master is usually great about talking people down but this guy was just an asshole. Basically He got up in Masters face and at one point pushed Him. Master did not like that so He punched Him, and knocked the guy down with one swift punch. The reason i laugh is because Master is not the type of person that would get in a fight like this....usually it takes more to set Master off. i will admit that it is flattering to have Him protect me like that. When we got home i had to nurse Master back to good health and He told me we wouldn't be doing that for a long time. Master also told me that we were going to go over the rules of clubbing......and then He gave that evil eye....the one that makes me feel i am in a wee bit of trouble.

Speaking of trouble do you (as a slave) ever feel like you are always sin trouble? Lately i do and it is making me feel down on myself as a slave. i feel like i have been with Master long enough that i shouldn't be getting myself into this much trouble. Master laughs and says i am being to hard on myself and that being a slave is a constant learning process. i just want Master to be happy with His property and always having to dish out another lesson....Ugh! Like i said i am a bit down today and way off topic. sorry i should probably end this now before i stray to far.

Friends

As usual things have been hectic here. After we have guests it take us a bit to get back into the swing of O/our life....if that even makes any sense. Master is back to His regular schedule for work and i am off and running to school....YEAH!!

i LOVE school!!! i love learning and i am loving the information i am learning. i feel so grateful for this opportunity that Master has given me. Thank You Master!!!

One of my teachers is a good friend of mine....Someone i think of as a best friend now. She has really become an important part of mine and Master life. There is a great connection between the three of us. The reason i bring her up is she has been going threw a time of self awareness and discovery. She is trying to understand her submission and her desires. She has a crazy busy vanilla world and a long distance Dom. Honestly she has made many big adjustments recently to make time in her life for her submission. i am impressed with her determination to not just put her submission on the back burner. i am impressed with her determination to live her deepest desires.

The last few nights i have been spending time talking with her and mostly listening. She thought she was ready to jump back in and give her Dom the commitment He was looking for....but now she is back in thinking mode at her Dom's request. she is questioning everything she had felt strong about a few days ago. she is feeling down and like maybe she choose the wrong path...she is questioning everything she thought she had decided the past weeks. i understand the need to really think things threw but there is a point of overthinking and i feel she is there. Master and i have talked lots about our friend and we would love to take her into our circle. Master loves training and the connection is there between us....but she is smitten with her Dom. Which i understand completely....just wishing for myself...HAHA! i just want to see my friend have all she desires. she has the biggest submissive heart of anyone i have ever met. i know she will find her place in time i just hope time doesn't become the enemy.

Master has put me on a tight leash this past week....well since Addy left. i have been used ever night and in ways i haven't been since training. i am feeling really centered and focused on Master which is a very secure place for me. i just hope my friends finds her center and focus soon. i also hope she know i am here for her as is Master.