Text messages

i am working late tonight.....

While at my desk i received a text message from Sir instructing me to give myself an orgasm, in my office before i went home. Sir also told me that this would be the last one for a while. i think i read the message about 50 times wondering if He was serious....well of course He was serious....but it just took me by surprise. i haven't received any instructions like that in so long i honestly didn't know how to respond. many feelings overcame me........excitement, fear, need, and a nice calmness about the sternness that i could read into the text. i could hear Sir telling me this as if i was there in His presence. Then a few minutes later i received another text that read, I am reclaiming what is mine!

That statement alone made me realize how much i needed this again. How much i longed to be reclaimed. It isn't as if i have lost any of my submission to Sir....it's more like things have been on hold. i have been serving Him in other ways....ways that needed to be taken care of. There are so many levels of submission and ours took on a new look for a while. Now i realized Sir was wanting to take it deeper again and that made me want to please Him more than anything. It didn't take long for me to get wet or to orgasm for that matter. i thought of all the things we had overcome int he past months and realized that my submission was truly deeper than any i had ever experienced before.....now i just want more!!!!!

Starting fresh

October starts a new page in our story. lucy is home and we are all adjusting to the new schedule and the new nurse that is coming in to help out. School has started for me and i just can't be around as much as i used to be or would like to be. i am teaching a full load this term and loving it. my interns are awesome and really know their stuff. Last term i got stuck with a bunch of interns who knew nothing and it made it difficult to really delegate with out fear. This bunch seems knowledgeable and there aer a few that i actually taught which makes things even easier.

Sir Michael is doing wonderfully. i can see the skip in His step has returned since lucy came home. He has His family back and is loving it....we are all loving it!!! It seems that this whole experience has really brought us all closer. It is weird that trauma brings people closer but it really helps put priorities in perspective.

We are all happy and together. Life is good for the time being. i am not naive enough to think it will stay that way but i am hopeful.

Until next time...........

Good News

i have some amazing news.......
lucy woke up yesterday!!!!!!!!!!

This is something i prepared myself to not happen and now that it has it makes me realize that there really are miracles int he world. All the doctors told she would probably never come back to us and if she did she wouldn't be herself. Well they were WRONG! She is back and although she is weak she is herself. she is alive and hopefully will maintain this way. i am on cloud nine!!!! It will be along road of recovery for her but she is with us and that is all matters.

When everything going on we thought maybe we would close this chapter of our lives but Sir has given it some thought and realizes He isn't going to give up because things are hard. It is just another bump in our road. We are strongest as a unit and we shouldn't walk away from things just because it gets hard.

There hasn't been much BDSM to talk about. That has taken a back burner for such along time. With all our schedules and hospital time it hasn't been time to really connect on that level. i can say that i am honestly feeling the desire growing inside me. It's like i just didn't think about it. Mostly because it felt wrong to think about that kind of need in a time like this. i felt selfish and ridiculous for even thinking about asking for some release. i know Sir could tell my need was there but neither of us wanted to go there. It was as if we just brushed it all under the table and now that things are looking brighter i feel like it might be okay to think about it now. Is that totally horrible?

i have been reading anew blog recently......A view from the floor
i have to say that i am really enjoying reading her words. It is a bit raw for my taste but it is so real and honest that i feel it deserves recognition.

Well i am off to the hospital to bring my little sister some flowers.
Until next time........

A few words

Things have not been well for us recently. lucy had her second surgery and is not doing well. We are all together and are hoping for the best. For the time being we are taking break from this blog. Thank you to all for reading. melody will be posting from time to time.

Goodbye for now......
Master Michael